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Name: Emily
Birthday: 2/26/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: VanGogh, wakeboarding, running, rainy days, humility, "uh oh" "YES!" and "brazier" moments, being with friends, sitting and talking over coffee, diversity and culture, tea, thoughts about Frankie..., Victor Hugo, John Piper, music of any sort - especially country, orchestras, or punkish stuff.
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  JyTilt
MSN: e_tilton59@hotmail.com
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11/8/2005
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| Kate and I just watched Moulin Rouge - a movie that i absolutely love! Tonight, i realized some really fun things about it though...in addition to the amazingly heart tugging love story!
First of all...i think it's neat that Satine believes that her way of life is working out for her. She's so used to doing to get love, and to never being truly happy that she thinks that's all there is. Then, her penniless writer comes along and completely woos her - giving her value and true love. He opens her eyes to what real beauty is and surprises her by showing her that her heart can be filled...THAT'S WHAT GOD DOES TO US!!!  It's the most beautiful experience on this earth.
Don't worry...there's more to glean from this movie about a prostitute. :) At the end, after the show the curtain closes to the sound of the audience applauding - in beautiful bliss believing that love has prevailed and all is right in the world, but behind the curtain Satine is dying. It amazes me how much that reflects life. It's so easy to enjoy the show others are living and to applaude because the surface level looks nice - it's so easy to revel in that. But we have to remember that every person has an underneath, a core, a deeper story that the world doesn't know - it's tucked within their soul. That's what i love about life - i want so badly to get to that level with people and to share that deepness, i think God delights in that kind of authenticity.
Those are my thoughts for the night. I'm glad Moulin Rouge has some redemptive value...now i don't feel so bad for absolutely adoring it. | | |
| Today I noticed a bunch of monarch butterflies flying around me. I started to think about them. I realized that they are a lot prettier when they're flying than they are when they're just sitting in one spot. The inside of their wings are brighter than the outside. So when they fly you see their vibrance. This reminded me of the Christian walk...when we are going around, doing what God has planned for us to do and fulfilling His desires we seem a lot more attractive, colorful, and desirable.
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| Last night I was sitting at Chili's waiting for my dinner and my friends were talking about their Biology exam. Biology has nothing to do with their majors. It was then that I realized...I really don't like Gen. Eds. Don't you think high school was enough of a gen. ed. for everyone? It's upsetting that we have to spend so much money on a class we don't even really need to have. Oh well...the beauty of a liberal arts college I guess.
That's really all I have to say...that and I'm incredibly bored and should be studying, unfortunately, the only exam I have left is so hard even studying won't make much difference...
Yay for school being almost done!!! | | |
| Alright, time for a new post i guess. i feel like writing on xanga has to be something you're in the mood to do or else it's a waste of time...
this friday i went to steak and shake with Kate and Jordan - on the way there it was raining, i LOVE driving in the rain. Does anyone else just sit there and follow a rain drop all the way down the window, as it glides along it merges with other rain drops, i really think it's one of the coolest things ever. It was nice.
I have a lot of stuff to get done and I'm having trouble starting on it all, I'm so ready for summer to be here - i'm getting really restless with myself.
Once I heard a quote where someone said that modern entertainment is without any stimulant...I agreed, it does seem kinda bland. But lately I've felt waaaay overstimulated. I live in a dorm room stuffed with stuff, I always have to have a radio on, when I hang out with people there's got to be some sort of entertainment like a movie or something. Someone else, i forget who cried out "simplicity, simplicity, simplicity" That's what I've been craving lately - I'm not sure if it's because all the stimulants around me are hollow or because i'm overstimulated - either way i feel like i need to purge my life of a lot of junk that's built up. Think of it, to live your life with only the pursuit of love, God's love and spreading love - not pursuing e-mails, or food, music, or even laughter. Just doing whatever it takes for genuine love to cover and define your very being.
that's about all the inspiration i have for right now - and i should do some psychology or speech or something productive.
Hope you all have a blessed week, with new ideas on how to serve Christ and get to know Him. | | |
| It's amazing how the little things can deaden one's spirit. Last week was a good one, but you know how there are so many little things in life? Well all the little things around me were just so blah and it made my heart become a little mundane. I wouldn't say there's anything wrong with it - but at the core we desire life and so by the week's end I knew there was more my heart was craving. hmm...not sure if this makes sense. I guess just things like a conversation, or the music you switch on, the stuff you think about. It can all be fine stuff - but not the best, not the most full of life. Like this week I just turned on the radio a lot and listened to a lot of fun poppy songs --- no issue there but by the end of the week I felt so overstimulated by empty things. All week I would walk to class or something and just be thinking about schedules or homework as opposed to noticing the breeze or thinking about the amazing way bodies are created - or even just savoring something.
I guess the point in all this is to say...depth is amazing, and breathtaking. To live life in the fullness means to live it by seeing all the little things buried beneath the big picture - things like love, mercy, good memories, sunsets, sparkles!! :) The list goes on...but for each person there is a list like that, it's a list that makes us smile, makes us come alive - it's imbedded within us by God, He puts it there when He breathes our souls into being. This week I lived too much on the surface of things to notice any of those - and so while it wasn't a "sinful" week, it was a mundane and dead week.
But...praise God because He reminded me of what I was missing. Saturday night we were driving in the middle of nowhere and I looked up and saw the stars - I see them every night, but they really took my breath away in that moment, I just wanted to stare - and today the clouds did the same thing...it's amazing how close we can get to the Lord when we chase the things He wrote upon our hearts, because at the end of those things...He is. | | |
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